It has been far too long since I updated this blog. I've successfully completed my fall semester of my junior year. But I can't breathe yet. And I won't until probably mid-March.
I have the amazing opportunity next semester study overseas in Ireland.
How many people get the chance to study abroad? Not that many. I have been looking for something to set me apart from the rest of applicants in job interviews because let's face it...Shopko and a movie theatre job just won't get me a job at an advertising firm. I suppose it's all how you play it...but still. I wanted that step up; and I finally have the chance.
But this entire experience does not come without its doubts. A year ago is when I started thinking about studying overseas. I was so set on the idea; but this last semester I have gained so many new friendships, and I have been dating my boyfriend for 8+ months now. I never took into account how much I could miss a little town called Whitewater and the people in it.
I have no doubt in my mind that they will all be there when I get back, the doubt about this all is am I going to be able to handle leaving them all for four months? I just have to keep telling myself that it will be over before I know it. That the experience will last a lifetime, and that next semester I will be making so many new friends and will be crying over leaving all them after I've only known them for four months.
So here I am at 1:15am...I've officially moved out of 301 Fischer Hall for the last time in my life. It's held a lot of great memories, and it kind of makes me sad that someone else will be living there next semester; but I'm looking forward to living in my apartment next year with Becca. I'm looking forward to living in my first ever apartment, which will be in Ireland with Melanie and Danelle. I'm looking forward to so many things that I can't help but get excited every time I think about it; yet there are times where I cuddle up next to Tom and just want to cry because I know I'm going to be leaving him in a little over a month. That I'll be missing our one year anniversary and valentine's day. That I won't be here for Phi Mu Alpha's formal, I won't be here for Zeta Phi Eta's formal, I won't be here for the nursing home, and a lot of the residents there that I know and love may not still be alive when I come back in Fall 2008. I'll be missing out on so much in Whitewater; but I will be living it up in Ireland.
There's so much waiting for me in the future, yet I dwell on the past all too often. I really think that's going to be my one new years resolution...so not dwell so much on the past, but look to the future. Because it's bright...and going to be one of the most amazing experiences of my life.
So that's it. That's my update. This is me writing down all my random thoughts. I think it's time for me to go to bed because I have a long day ahead of me tomorrow. So...
Good Night.
