It has been far too long since I updated this blog. I've successfully completed my fall semester of my junior year. But I can't breathe yet. And I won't until probably mid-March.
I have the amazing opportunity next semester study overseas in Ireland.
How many people get the chance to study abroad? Not that many. I have been looking for something to set me apart from the rest of applicants in job interviews because let's face it...Shopko and a movie theatre job just won't get me a job at an advertising firm. I suppose it's all how you play it...but still. I wanted that step up; and I finally have the chance.
But this entire experience does not come without its doubts. A year ago is when I started thinking about studying overseas. I was so set on the idea; but this last semester I have gained so many new friendships, and I have been dating my boyfriend for 8+ months now. I never took into account how much I could miss a little town called Whitewater and the people in it.
I have no doubt in my mind that they will all be there when I get back, the doubt about this all is am I going to be able to handle leaving them all for four months? I just have to keep telling myself that it will be over before I know it. That the experience will last a lifetime, and that next semester I will be making so many new friends and will be crying over leaving all them after I've only known them for four months.
So here I am at 1:15am...I've officially moved out of 301 Fischer Hall for the last time in my life. It's held a lot of great memories, and it kind of makes me sad that someone else will be living there next semester; but I'm looking forward to living in my apartment next year with Becca. I'm looking forward to living in my first ever apartment, which will be in Ireland with Melanie and Danelle. I'm looking forward to so many things that I can't help but get excited every time I think about it; yet there are times where I cuddle up next to Tom and just want to cry because I know I'm going to be leaving him in a little over a month. That I'll be missing our one year anniversary and valentine's day. That I won't be here for Phi Mu Alpha's formal, I won't be here for Zeta Phi Eta's formal, I won't be here for the nursing home, and a lot of the residents there that I know and love may not still be alive when I come back in Fall 2008. I'll be missing out on so much in Whitewater; but I will be living it up in Ireland.
There's so much waiting for me in the future, yet I dwell on the past all too often. I really think that's going to be my one new years resolution...so not dwell so much on the past, but look to the future. Because it's bright...and going to be one of the most amazing experiences of my life.
So that's it. That's my update. This is me writing down all my random thoughts. I think it's time for me to go to bed because I have a long day ahead of me tomorrow. So...
Good Night.
Simple things that make me smile...
* When PostSecret posts their post by midnight on Saturday so I can check it before I go to bed.
* Driving my mom's convertiable with the top down on a sunny day
* When a boy makes me giggle
* Watching the snow fall in a warm room with hot chocolate
* Walking outside when it first starts to snow and it just starting to build up.
* Getting mail from old hostees/friends/vistors online via averageangel
* Waking up in the morning and blasting my music
* Walking past old friends/boyfriends when you look your best/hot (oh you know you enjoy doing it girls!)
* When people send random text messages saying "I Love You"/call me randomly to catch up
* When people leave good away messages up about me (yes, it has happend in the past! :P)
* My mentees (er...I should say ex-mentees)
* Riding on a plane
* Listening to the Milwaukee Symphony Orchestra play Ode To Joy live at the PAC
* Ice skating at Red Arrow Park
* Being in the middle of a concert, in the middle of a crowd, and just feeling the energy around me
* Helping out at my mom's 6th grade band camp
* Going to work every Saturday (even if I say I don't want to go, once I get there, I always want to be there.)
* Nutrolls
*Using to the third sink (only a few people understand :P)
* When I get a new comment/message on myspace or facebook
* Hearing from old friends from high school
* Working out
* Walking around campus with my mp3 player on, jamming to a song and smiling
* Driving and rocking out to some awesome music, singing along and tapping my foot (not on the gas pedal though :P)
* Getting dressed up
* Random Hugs
* Finishing a scrapbook page, and having people look at my scrapbook
complimenting me on all the hours (if not days) I've put into it.
* Getting that letter of 'acceptance'
* Getting back from the Nursing Home, having a feeling of love and goodness in my heart
* Going out to my Grandparents house and watching my family play Sheepshead
* My Grandma Shirley's chocolate cake
* Looking back at old livejournal entries to see how much I've grown
* Being able to look at the past and present and being happy with where I am
* Seeing my favorite band(s) in concert
* When people that I've only met twice comes and visits me at school
* When people make me feel special/loved
* Getting a single flower for nothing special...just that I'm sick.
* When people call me right away to tell me something that happened and tell me that I'm the first to know this big news
* Random nights that turn out to be so much fun.
* Dancing like an idiot with a group of good friends.
* Baking cookies and sharing them with everyone just to spread some cheer/smiles
* Getting into clean sheets/a freshly made bed/pulling my comforter out of the dryer
* Someone telling me I'm beautiful and meaning it
* Recording a tv show so that we can fast forward through the commericals
To Be Continued...
I thought it was a nice way to end tonight...with a smile on my face.
To become full you may need to first become empty.
My title for the link to this blog is always "Here's To New Beginnings." I thought it applied even more so now that it's a new year. I rung in the new year with a few girls from Whitewater and their boyfriends. I was the only single one there, and although I was upset towards the beginning of the night, as soon as everyone kissed their respective partner, I realized that I really shouldn't be upset about the fact that I am single.
New Years resolutions are always something people do and I typically try them, but never really succeed. Besides the typical 'loose weight' resolution, I'm doing the whole 'stop biting my lips' thing (instead of my nails, I bite my lips when I'm bored - it's a horrible habit.) But that seems so insignificant compared to the others.
First off, I've always been a gossip queen. Always have, and as the saying goes, always will be. But this year I'm making an attempt to stop spreading it. I usually hear a ton of stuff from people and then, out of habit, go and tell someone else about it when that person really should not be hearing it from me, or really doesn't care. I can hear all about the drama as much as I want; but I'm going to make a honest effort to just shut up for once.
Secondly, I'm a bitch. Flat out. I treat those I care about like crap sometimes, I butt heads with people that I love and then end up screaming at them. I make any situation about myself, and even if it has nothing to do with myself, I try to make it about me. One of the quotes that I posted a few posts ago was from the movie The Last Kiss that said "What you feel only matters to you. It's what you do to the people you say you love thats what matters. That's the only thing that counts." I really need to make sure that those that I really do care about stay in my life, and that I start treating them with more respect and love. It's all about my actions. I can say that I love a person as much as I want, but if I act differently towards them, their opinions of me may be different.
Thirdly, be positive. I only get one life to live and instead of looking at things in a negative point of view, why not view things differently? It shouldn't be too hard since I do really have a good outlook on life...but my attitudes sometimes faulter. If someone says something negativly about me, who cares? Or, as another quote said (I'm a quote junkie, what can I say?): "Why be concerned with things you have no control over? What good is it to worry when you never really know what's going to happen, tomorrow is just another day you'll find your way you'll be okay, you just have to learn to let go."
And lastly: ENJOY BEING SINGLE! As simple as that. It's not like I've lost anything from being single, nor have I really gained anything. I guess I was just sick and tired of being single from high school; and I was afraid that I'd go back into a spell of years of being without someone. But in the end, who cares? I'm going to study abroad in a year and I don't know if I'd be able to handle the distance, and there's just so many things that factor into a relationship that I really don't have time, nor do I want to really, deal with. So here I am. Positive and Single.
A new semester/major awaits me when I get back to Whitewater, along with a new job, and so many new oppourtunities that I don't even know about. So here's to a brand new year, and brand new new beginnings!
I'm addicted to the website postsecert.com and every week I find myself relating to at least one secret. I think this weeks applies to this post:
