I guess I could have changed, or should I have stayed the same?
My title for the link to this blog is always "Here's To New Beginnings." I thought it applied even more so now that it's a new year. I rung in the new year with a few girls from Whitewater and their boyfriends. I was the only single one there, and although I was upset towards the beginning of the night, as soon as everyone kissed their respective partner, I realized that I really shouldn't be upset about the fact that I am single.
New Years resolutions are always something people do and I typically try them, but never really succeed. Besides the typical 'loose weight' resolution, I'm doing the whole 'stop biting my lips' thing (instead of my nails, I bite my lips when I'm bored - it's a horrible habit.) But that seems so insignificant compared to the others.
First off, I've always been a gossip queen. Always have, and as the saying goes, always will be. But this year I'm making an attempt to stop spreading it. I usually hear a ton of stuff from people and then, out of habit, go and tell someone else about it when that person really should not be hearing it from me, or really doesn't care. I can hear all about the drama as much as I want; but I'm going to make a honest effort to just shut up for once.
Secondly, I'm a bitch. Flat out. I treat those I care about like crap sometimes, I butt heads with people that I love and then end up screaming at them. I make any situation about myself, and even if it has nothing to do with myself, I try to make it about me. One of the quotes that I posted a few posts ago was from the movie The Last Kiss that said "What you feel only matters to you. It's what you do to the people you say you love thats what matters. That's the only thing that counts." I really need to make sure that those that I really do care about stay in my life, and that I start treating them with more respect and love. It's all about my actions. I can say that I love a person as much as I want, but if I act differently towards them, their opinions of me may be different.
Thirdly, be positive. I only get one life to live and instead of looking at things in a negative point of view, why not view things differently? It shouldn't be too hard since I do really have a good outlook on life...but my attitudes sometimes faulter. If someone says something negativly about me, who cares? Or, as another quote said (I'm a quote junkie, what can I say?): "Why be concerned with things you have no control over? What good is it to worry when you never really know what's going to happen, tomorrow is just another day you'll find your way you'll be okay, you just have to learn to let go."
And lastly: ENJOY BEING SINGLE! As simple as that. It's not like I've lost anything from being single, nor have I really gained anything. I guess I was just sick and tired of being single from high school; and I was afraid that I'd go back into a spell of years of being without someone. But in the end, who cares? I'm going to study abroad in a year and I don't know if I'd be able to handle the distance, and there's just so many things that factor into a relationship that I really don't have time, nor do I want to really, deal with. So here I am. Positive and Single.
A new semester/major awaits me when I get back to Whitewater, along with a new job, and so many new oppourtunities that I don't even know about. So here's to a brand new year, and brand new new beginnings!
I'm addicted to the website postsecert.com and every week I find myself relating to at least one secret. I think this weeks applies to this post:
